Rant.

You're laying not even two feet away from me,
I'm upset.
You're most likely debating on what to do.
It's nothing serious. But I'm still upset.
You know I don't like her.
So what makes you think that I'll be all fine and dandy with you ditching me for her?

This time you are actually ditching me. Other times you hang out with her I don't care but
This time we already made plans, and You're changing them to go with her.
WHY does it have to be tomorrow?
I was really looking forward to showing you off to my friend.
You can just simply go shopping on Tuesday,
I guess she can go too, I'll hold my tongue.

I'm just upset and trying to hold back my tears.
I know it's a stupid thing to cry over but I'm a wimp when it comes to people I like.
Especially when it comes to going with another girl, ESPECIALLY one I don't like.

I don't know. You really can do what you want. I'll care but it doesn't matter to me
As long as you're content with your decision.
But I know you're not cause you know that I'm upset.

I just want to go over there and cuddle with you like we do every night. But instead I sit here typing and ranting about how I'm upset about you going to hang out with a friend.
Like I said, I'm only pissed cause we made plans first and you're changing them to hang with her.

Gawd I really wanna cry. It makes me feel better and takes away the urge to do it in the first place.
But I don't want you to feel worse. And you'd most likely get teary eye'd too and I don't wanna see that.
It wouldn't make anything any better.
So I'ma sit here and keep it bottled up, at least until you fall asleep and you can't hear my sniffles.

I think I'm mostly upset cause I always get upset every time I have to leave you. I like you being there by my side 24/7.

This is fucking stoopid.
I really, really, REALLY just want to cry. I hate the feeling that I want to cry, but can't.
I tried, but when you move I have to clear my face. I might just "go to the bathroom" and just sit on the toilet and cry there. That just sound pathetic.

I know you're not hurting me on purpose. Cause I see it hurts you when I'm hurt.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I get jealous
I'm sorry I make it difficult for you to make simple decisions.
I'm sorry I'm kinda a fuck up.

I could be just PMSing, But I'm just upset.
I'm fuckin stoopid and get upset over little things.
I really hope I don't fuck up things up.

You know what, you do what you like.
I'ma have to just grin and bare it.

I'm sorry & I Love You.

/rant