I'm not in love with you anymore.
And I'm falling in love with someone else.
And not even with the guy I talked about in the last post.
Someone even better than him.
Problem is, it's someone you don't like at all.
But someone I've always had feelings for and I am sooo happy that I'm finally getting this chance.
Hate to say it, but thank Buddha for drugs. x)
If it wasn't for Saturday night, him and I would have never shared that kiss that set all this off.
That Saturday night was great, the next day was even better.
Him and I just laid in bed together, being dead from the night before. and ya know, makin out :p
I like how much he calls me beautiful.
It makes me feel wanted.
Yesterday was a fun day with him x)
I already told you about it, haha
But besides THAT part, Just laying next to him cuddling with him
or him just...brushing my hair outta my face with his hands and caressing my face, ahh<333
Then just waking up next to him is great,
Even if were not cuddling or anything, but his leg or hand touching mine works just fine
Trying to get him outta bed for school is/was difficult lol
He just gets up and falls right back down
When he fell down, i just laid there next to him
And he put his arm around me and we cuddled, And he kissed me.
I remember when him and I hung out everyday and walked home together
& I remember just looking at his lips and just wanting so bad to kiss them
Finally, I have, and I can whenever I want.
And it's amazing<3
You just simply refuse to kiss me for whatever reason.
So that's your lose.
And he's right, he is about 50 levels above you right now
Cause he's pretty much the only thing running through my mind
So I'm wrote this all just to let you know.
I'm no longer IN love with you, but I still love you dearly.
Besides, you have a plan for your future and what not
Him and I are just enjoying out teen years together before shit gets real
So as I finish this "letter" to you, that you will most likely never read
I will tell you one last thing.
You always have a spot in my heart,
and maybe if him and I don't work out in the long run
We will reunite
and it will feel so right
Love&Rockets,
Tia♥
