This Is Where It All Started

This was the first day we hung out.  The day we really met.
This was the day I knew you would be mine. You made me laugh and we connected like no other. We went to your house that night and you introduced me to your mom. You made me smile and I thought you were the cutest, most attractive person I had seen in a long time. The night before, we were on Stickam and you were telling me how I'm the most beautiful black girl you had ever seen. You would always tell me how beautiful you thought I was. I fell for you instantly. But you were getting over your ex, and you said "you didn't like black girls". But I knew the way you talked about me, you would eventually change your mind.
Oh baby, I'm glad you did. I've never been happier in a relationship. I'm positive this relationship will not end up like the others. I won't let it. With the others, I was new to relationships, or wasn't to in to them. But this one, I'm not letting anything go wrong. If anything bad happens, I'ma fight against it. I have so much faith in this relationship. I'm not gonna screw this up, in no shape or form. I won't let myself.

Cause I don't think I'd be able to let this go.

At Last

I did it.
And now you are officially mine. I am so glad. I'm glad we finally talked it out. I know you don't want to hurt me, but this is a chance I'm willing to take. And plus I don't hold grudges. So if anything would happen, I'd still remain friends with you. I couldn't have you in my life. We've been too close of friends for so long to do that.
And like I told you, the only thing that would most likely hurt me, if you cheated on me, which you said you wouldn't do so I'm not to worry. And you afraid to fuck something up between us. I assure you nothing will go wrong as long as you remain mine.
It hasn't really hit me that you are actually mine. All mine and nobody else's. I think it's cause I'm a little annoyed that you took "Skittles" which is stoopid. But you say you regret it. So whatever.
But like i said, I'm glad that you are finally mine.
And I reeaally hope I don't do anything to fuck this up.

"Brightly Wound"

This is song is so amazing. And I just think of you every time I listen to it. One cause I heard it first with you and two cause it's just perfect. I just listen to it on repeat.
Every word just reminds me of you. And it makes me so happy.

"It's happening all the time, When I open my eyes. I'm still taken by surprise. I hold sunlight and swallow fireflies. And it makes me want to cry. 
I love you

I shall never grow up. Make believe is much too fun. Can we go far away to the humming meadow?

We were walking there, And I had tangles in my hair. But you make me feel so pretty. You have shining eyes, Yes like those forest lights. And it makes me want to cry
I love you"


I just love it so much. I love you so much. And I'm afraid of losing you to anyone else.
This is what happens when you date an attractive person, other people also think they're attractive also. Like that bitch at your school dance tonight. I knew something like that was gonna happen. Bitches all on your shit, trying to kiss you and what not, yeah not okay with me. But I'm just aggravated by the fact when people try hitting on you, you don't say anything about you already having someone. That's the only thing I dislike about our relationship. I want you to be able to say, "No, I already have an amazing girlfriend that I love very much."
Or something along those lines. :p
But seriously, I try talking to you about it kinda. But it's like you don't wanna or you're afraid or something.
I remember after we had a nice night out, and you walked me to my door, hugged me and kissed me. And As you were about to walk away, I grabbed your hand and just asked, "Can we go out now?" And I was so sure you were gonna say yes. But you just said, "No." and kept walking. I was really hurt but brushed it off.
Then another time we got drunk together, and you kinda tried to explain why you hadn't asked me out yet.
But it didn't make any sense.  You said something like, we're to bad-ass people individually and your think if we were together, I don't even know.
But you know what, I'ma try one more time. I'ma look you straight in the eyes and ask you why we are not together yet. And you better not give me some bullshit reason. I've been through enough bullshit with guys. It's another reason why I'm more attractive to chicks, cause with the girls I've been with (except one) I haven't gotten that emotional involved. So I didn't get hurt. But it's different with guys. I guess I fall for guys faster than girls, but I'm more attracted to girls. I'm weird. 
But to get to my point. With you, how I've liked you for soooo long, and now I finally have you, I will seriously be heartbroken. That's like the main reason why I haven't really said anything about us. I am afraid that you're just gonna give up on me and be like the other guys; "I don't really wanna be in a relationship, I just wanna do my own thing." Or like with the other guy I attempted to be with."You just want the label or calling me your boyfriend. Why does it have to be all complicated??" Blah blah I suck and I'm a fag blaah"
I'm afraid of something like that happening. I don't just want it for the label of "Boyfriend & Girlfriend"
I want it so I can call you mine, and only mine. And that I'm yours and ONLY yours. So I don't have to worry about you being able to do things with other people. If you haven't noticed, I'm a rather jealous person.
But anywhozer, Hopefully I'll grow the balls to speak to you about it tomorrow at my friend's birthday party.
Hopefully there will be some "drinks" to give me more courage. 
But ya never know:
"Maybe this time is different. I mean I really think you like me."

My Survey For You

1st off whats his name?Wifey of course

What makes him so amazing?
Uhm pretty much everything

Does he bring out the best in you?
Pretty much yeah, He brings out my happy side :3

How old is he?
17 :)

How old are you?
17 also

How long have you been together?
Intimately  together: 3 months
Together as BFFs: 3 years :)

Do or did you celebrate monthly anniversaries?
Noo, but I would like too, He doesn't though x)

Have you ever broken up and got back together?
Nope

What sweet names or nick names do you call eachother?
I call him Wifey, and he just calls me what he pleases
i.e, Black goddess, Chocolate princesses x)

Can you talk to him about anything?
Yep

Can you trust him with your deepest secret?
I don't have any secrets, but perhaps

Can you share your every thought without questioning yourself?
Pretty much

Would you take a bullet for him?
I think I would :)
If you didn't have sex with him, would you cheat, or wait?
I would wait cause I'm sure it would be worth it
Whats most important to you in a relationship?
Communication and being comfortable around the person

Is it love or lust?
Mostly love with some lust thrown in there :)

Do you really know the difference?
Ohyeaah

Who gave whom their phone number first?
I'm not even sure xD

Was the 3-day phone rule used?
napes, we texted i think


Anything you wish to change about him?
Hmm maybe little things lol

What attracted you the most?
His attractiveness and his humor


Did you ever get butterflies?
Yeup and I still do

What are your intentions?
To grow up and old with him
Even if we aren't together I still want him by my side when I'm all old

Would you say your relationship is growing?
ohyes I would

If not, what would make it better?
His mum not being a bitch and being able to go to his house

Do you see a future with him?
Oh yes

Do you think he feels the same way?
I really hope so.
Have you discussed future childrens names together?
Ha yeaah

Has he bought you any jewelry?
nooo

Has he bought you any flowers or teddy bears?
nooo x)

What about chocolates when it wasn't Valentines Day?
lol I mean he's bought me a Twix before xD

Does he get along with your friends and family?
My mom yeah

Do the two of you live together?
We used too, until school started :p

Would you live together before marriage?
Yeah

Did you know eachother long before dating?
3 years :3

Where was your 1st date?
We've never really been on a real first date


Where did your 1st kiss take place?
At a free rave at boomers :3

Who said I Love You 1st?
Him :3

Where is he right now?
At his house

Do you think he will read this survey?
Not anytime soon lol






I like doing surveys, especially the ones that have to do with the last person you kissed and stuff like that.
I just enjoy having someone to talk about. I always like talking about you. I just feel like I gotta tell the world about how happy you make me. I can tell I make you happy also. I can just see it in your eyes when you look at me. And when we have to say good-bye. You kiss me like it's the last time you'll ever see me, even though I'll see you the next day. But it's never "good-bye", It's always "see you later."
I'm glad I saw you today, I was so worried about you. I'm glad your okay, and like I always say I don't know what I would do without you.  I love you Dylan "Wifey" Collins

I Need You With Me Tonight

I miss you. I just saw you today, but I just miss being with you everyday. I miss waking up everyday and seeing your face. Or waking up to you putting your arm around me. It just sucks your Mom all of a sudden dislikes me. I'm not aloud to spend the night, I'm not even aloud over. Which also sucks cause that's the only place we can..ehem..do the nana. Which I kinda miss also. Which is weird cause I used to never really like or care about sex until we did it. It's cause I finally did it with someone I have a connection with. And I've always found you sexual attractive. So that kinda helped also. It helped a lot. Oh baby, you're amazing ;)

Man, I'm really feeling icky right now. It's only cause you aren't replying to my text and everything is extra sensitive cause Aunt Flow & Uncle Tom are coming to visit. Which also sucks, cause we haven't been able to do the nana and now we really can't. But anywayz, I do feel really icky either way. I just wish you were here to hold my face and look into my eyes and do that cute smirk of yours. Ugh, Can you just teleport here for the night then teleport back to your house in the morning? I really need you here with me tonight.
I hate how emotional I get when I get near...the time of the month.

I just feel so alone right now. It sucks. I can't even go to sleep contently without you saying you love me and goodnight. It makes it difficult to sleep at night. It helps me make sure you're alright and that you know that I'm alright. But you're not replying, so something could be wrong, and I always think the worse. And now that I actually thinking about it I worried. Last I heard you were buying weed from a friend. and that was it. That was about two hours ago. I'm tearing up just thinking about if anything happened to you. I don't know what I'd do with myself. I need to stop thinking about it. It's not making anything any better. What I should think about is us and us going old together, with grand children.

I love you very dearly, and really wish you were here with me
Because I really need you with me tonight.

Oh You

I like talking to you about you. About how long I've liked you. I haven't really looked you in the eyes and told you how actually happy I am to finally be with you, but I'm sure you know.
It makes me giddy how you basically said seeing me with someone else. And you said that that was what pushed you to me, which means you cared from me back then.
All I'm saying is that I'm glad we're together now :)

First Day Of School

It's your first day of your last year at school.
I'm excited for you and sad that I'm not there to enjoy it with you. I feel a made a mistake going to a different school. If I would have known that US would be happening, I wouldn't have done it. I wish I could go back just so I can be with you every day. But what I'm really scared about is what will happen during the year.
I don't want you to change your mind about us.

That's what I'm most worried about. Cause I feel this is gonna be one of those "you don't know what you have until it's gone" things. I mean I know what I have with you, and it's amazing. But at the same time, your just there so I don't think much of it? But I know if you "break up" with me, I will completely break down. I've been soo happy that I finally got what I wanted after all this time and I'm not ready for it to end. I just hope this isn't just a "Summer Fling".

I wanna make it my goal to graduate with you and the rest of my class. When I actually think about it, I really do miss the High School experience. I wanna go to Winter Formal, I wanna get flowers delivered\ to my class for Valentine's Day, and I especially wanna go to Prom.

It's only the first day of school and I'm already bugging.
You know what I'm going to do, I'm gonna step up my game at this school so I can go back to Grossmont with you. It would be amazing to go to prom with you and to walk around with a blue cap in gown.
I don't care, I'm going back.

"I Don't Know, Are We?"

That was your answer to our friend when she asked if we're in love.
I just smiled and told you we are in really deep like.
I don't think we're quite in love yet.

If you have to question it, then we're not.
But I'm okay with it for now.
I just hope that one day, you won't have to question it.

Today was your last day staying here. It makes me sad that you're not here to lay with me. Every time we have to say good-bye, it's so sad. You hug me and kiss me like it's the last time. We make it seem like we will never see each other again, but we know that's not true. I will maybe see you tomorrow, not very likely, but for sure Tuesday.

I love you lots and lots. And someday I will be IN love with you.
And I know it will happen, since you have such sure thoughts about our future together