Rollin Confessions

When people roll, they tend to have verbal diarrhea
and just say everything and anything that comes to their mind.
We rolled on Friday.
And it was waay better when I rolled with Cody.
It was our first time rolling together outside of a rave and you weren't burnt at all. And the things you confessed to me, made me smile so big.
You told me that you're happy that I'm your girlfriend
You told me that you really want to marry me.
You told me that we're good together cause we are two super awesome and amazing people.
You told me that you love me.
We talked about how happy we are with each other. You like how long I've liked you and it makes me smile that you like it. I'm glad that you're glad that I'm your girlfriend. And I think that rolling makes us closer cause of the confessing. We cuddled a lot more that night and last night. I love it.
I also loved it when you were holding me ever so tightly and you said,
"I just wanna lay like this forever."
Then we continued to sing "Stand with you on a mountain" By Savage Garden
I really cannot wait until you turn 18. Then you can finally live with me. Fuck living with your dad. You're welcome right here in my bed.
Baby, You're amazing.
Even with all the crazy shit you do and the shit you make me do
I still love you and couldn't love you any less<3

Our Future Together

It needs to be a little more planned out.

You told me the other day that you wanna marry me and have kids with me. That made me soo happy to hear you say that. We just gotta figure out how were gonna make this work. You wanna move up to Temecula with your dad. You just wanna live there cause he has a really nice house. You want me to go with you but I'm no sure your dad wants to pay for me to live there also, so I guess I'm hopefully gonna get an apartment up there. Kinda bugs me that you would rather live with your dad than your future wife.

You finally got to spend the night last weekend. And my mum worked Saturday night so we had the night to ourself. Didn't turn out as great as I thought, but I did get my nana. It was some intense nana too but one night I would perfer if we actually "make love". We have yet to do that, just some great fucking. But I think it'd be great just to make some sweet sweet love to you. The times you are in the mood to do it, we aren't able to.
But you know, as soon as we turn 18 and we get our hotel room for a few days. It's gonna be amazing.
I just can't wait to have children with you. I just need to get a stable job and a stable place to live and then we can start a family together, that is if you're not living with your dad.

We have 4-8 months to figure out what were gonna do in the future,
Whatever it is, I hope it's together.

Oh Baby You

Finally you made it to my bed today. Today started out crappy, but ended cause my mum kidnapped you.
You said you missed sleeping with me in my bed, I've missed you too. I just wish you could have stayed the night. For multiple reasons. One cause I wanna wake up in your arms. And two cause
We both have some sexual frustration built up. If only my mum wans't home, I would have jumped your bone right then and there. It turns me on how turned on you get. Ohmygawd how it turns me on. I really wish we had our own place, or had a house to our self for a night.
You are amazing, you know that. And I love you.
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I Just Feel Like Venting.

But not in a normal way, no In a way that will most likely break my computer.
I need to take out some of my angry.
Why angry you ask?
My boyfriend doesn't really bother to talk to me. SO YOU KNOW WHAT?
Forget it. If he wants to talk to me, he can text me or whatever.

I really wanna like slam my fist on this damn keyboard. Like Donkey Kong Style.
I'm so annoyed right now. I really wish he would put some effort in this relationship
and make me fell at least thought of when I'm not around

It's be nice to know if your thinking about me.

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*sigh*
That was me slamming my fingers on the keyboard, and typing obnoxiously.
It actually made me feel a little better.
Just like when I would get mad, I would scream in a pillow.

Blaah.

I Miss You

I just miss you being here with me.
Cause when your here with me, I don't feel sad because you're here holding me and staring me in my eyes making me feel beautiful. And I love that feeling. Just you staring at me, not saying anything, and slightly smiling at me makes me feel content.
I'm resisting the urge to cry right now. Mainly cause my nose is stuffy and I don't want to make it worse. I just wish you kept your phone attached to your hip and didn't fall asleep so early. All I really need is a simple "Good-night<3" from you and I can go to sleep comfortably. But without that, it takes awhile for me to finally force my self to go to sleep, even if I am tired. I did a lot of walking today and I just want to pass out, but instead I'm up at 12:12am typing in this blog listening to music wishing you were here with me. I'm glad I got to spend the night at your house last night, but I didn't get to cuddle with you cause you passed out on the couch and I was on the floor. But you did get up in the middle of the night and come on the ground with me and laid next to me. Just next to me, a little farther than I hope though. I would have cuddled up to you, but you get hot easily and didn't want you start sweating everywhere with my warm body next to yours. I understand that your sick.
I wish your mum wasn't such dicks and kick me out at 7 in the morning. And I wish you cared more to just do what she wants without arguing. You should just do whatever she wants just so she'll let you do what you want. I'm just sad and upset and lonely and I think your like the only person who can cure this loneliness.
But you're so far away. And it sucks.
I just wish you cared a little bit more.