It Kinda Makes Me Very Happy

You're at your dad's again. But I'm taking it better this time.
Maybe it's cause the whole time you were gone I made sure I wasn't alone the whole time.
I was at Ivan's house.
I missed you terribly. And I still will until you're back here in my arms.

You love me. I know you love me a lot. I can tell by the way you look at me and by the way you touch me or hug me. I'll be in the kitchen doing something, and you will just come up behind me and just hug me. I love it when you do that. Or when I'm doing something silly and you just look at me with this cute smile and I ask, "what?" and you just say ," nothing, you're just cute."  No you, baby. 

But what made me smile the most was you're text tonight.
Just us talking about how much we miss each other and this is how it went:
You: "I miss you"
Me: "I miss you too, like a lot :l"
You: "Lol :)"
Me: "Why you laugh at me?! D:"
You: "Because I started thinking about you and was happy."

Yeup that pretty much topped off a good night. You make me very happy and just know what to say to make me smile.  I can't wait for you to move in.

The truth is, If I could be with anyone, I would still be with you.
IHeartYou.

I Sat Here.

I sat here, in this very spot.
All, damn, day. Waiting for you to come.
It's not your fault you're not here, but that doesn't stop me from bawling my eyes out.
I really wanted to see you today. I was really hoping to since you've been gone at your dad's since Friday. it's been awhile since I haven't seen you for more than a day.
This sucks really bad.
I seriously sat here waiting, I could have gone out and did something, like go to the movies.
But no.
I sat right here, in his very spot, waiting for you to come.
That's pretty pathetic.

Happy 2/5 Month

And I didn't even get to see you today.
But it's alright, you had Dance practice x)

We've been intimate and basically together for 5 months
It's been official for 2.
I like the sound of 5 months better.
So happy 5 months baby.
Sorry you don't like celebrating anniversaries. I'll just enjoy this one myself :p
This is the longest relationship I've ever been in. And I'm so glad that it's with you. I would have never thought that in a million years, like when I first met you, that you were the one that I was going to be with longer than anyone. There is a lot that I would have never thought would happen with you that did.
Like having amazing sex.  I've always thought that I just wasn't a sexual person and could go the rest of my life without sex. But I've always been sexually attracted to you, so that pretty much helped.
5 months down the road, and we have no problems. We've never really had any major problems.
Except a long while back when we didn't talk for a week. But we got over it.
I can't even really see us fighting over anything. We're too much alike.
And I love it.

I actually let you read this blog. I let you read it all. I was nervous to do so, cause i didn't want you to think I was a creeper or obsessed with you or anything. I just have a lot of feelings that I like to vent out. But you read it. And I think you liked it. And you don't think of me any differently.
That was me letting my walls downs finally, and I don't think you will give me a reason to build them back up.

I cannot wait until you move in with me. 3 more months and you will be mine, sweet, mine. You seemed happy about it too. It's going to be amazing. We don't have to worry about your dumb mom anymore.
Then the next step is saving enough money to move out of my mom's house. Or saving up enough money to travel for a year. That's our plan after we graduate. Just running off for a year just us and the world.
I really do want to spend the rest of my life with you.
I'm ready for this Rollercoster ride called life
And would very much like you by my side.