"Brightly Wound"

This is song is so amazing. And I just think of you every time I listen to it. One cause I heard it first with you and two cause it's just perfect. I just listen to it on repeat.
Every word just reminds me of you. And it makes me so happy.

"It's happening all the time, When I open my eyes. I'm still taken by surprise. I hold sunlight and swallow fireflies. And it makes me want to cry. 
I love you

I shall never grow up. Make believe is much too fun. Can we go far away to the humming meadow?

We were walking there, And I had tangles in my hair. But you make me feel so pretty. You have shining eyes, Yes like those forest lights. And it makes me want to cry
I love you"


I just love it so much. I love you so much. And I'm afraid of losing you to anyone else.
This is what happens when you date an attractive person, other people also think they're attractive also. Like that bitch at your school dance tonight. I knew something like that was gonna happen. Bitches all on your shit, trying to kiss you and what not, yeah not okay with me. But I'm just aggravated by the fact when people try hitting on you, you don't say anything about you already having someone. That's the only thing I dislike about our relationship. I want you to be able to say, "No, I already have an amazing girlfriend that I love very much."
Or something along those lines. :p
But seriously, I try talking to you about it kinda. But it's like you don't wanna or you're afraid or something.
I remember after we had a nice night out, and you walked me to my door, hugged me and kissed me. And As you were about to walk away, I grabbed your hand and just asked, "Can we go out now?" And I was so sure you were gonna say yes. But you just said, "No." and kept walking. I was really hurt but brushed it off.
Then another time we got drunk together, and you kinda tried to explain why you hadn't asked me out yet.
But it didn't make any sense.  You said something like, we're to bad-ass people individually and your think if we were together, I don't even know.
But you know what, I'ma try one more time. I'ma look you straight in the eyes and ask you why we are not together yet. And you better not give me some bullshit reason. I've been through enough bullshit with guys. It's another reason why I'm more attractive to chicks, cause with the girls I've been with (except one) I haven't gotten that emotional involved. So I didn't get hurt. But it's different with guys. I guess I fall for guys faster than girls, but I'm more attracted to girls. I'm weird. 
But to get to my point. With you, how I've liked you for soooo long, and now I finally have you, I will seriously be heartbroken. That's like the main reason why I haven't really said anything about us. I am afraid that you're just gonna give up on me and be like the other guys; "I don't really wanna be in a relationship, I just wanna do my own thing." Or like with the other guy I attempted to be with."You just want the label or calling me your boyfriend. Why does it have to be all complicated??" Blah blah I suck and I'm a fag blaah"
I'm afraid of something like that happening. I don't just want it for the label of "Boyfriend & Girlfriend"
I want it so I can call you mine, and only mine. And that I'm yours and ONLY yours. So I don't have to worry about you being able to do things with other people. If you haven't noticed, I'm a rather jealous person.
But anywhozer, Hopefully I'll grow the balls to speak to you about it tomorrow at my friend's birthday party.
Hopefully there will be some "drinks" to give me more courage. 
But ya never know:
"Maybe this time is different. I mean I really think you like me."